Dear Della....

Today was a bad day. The faci is just simply too annoying. :( Whatever. She seems to always forget to take her medication on Fridays... Was very moody today. Sigh. When will I get back to my normal self? Never? Sigh. :( I miss you so much. But I won't tell you that cause.......... I know you make the right choice. As long as you're happy. Today, I realize... You don't have to do anything special to make me happy. As long as you're around, there's no reason why I shouldn't smile. That's love, Baby. Even though we're just friends now, that won't stop me from loving you. If one day I stop loving you, what will you do? :/ Ignore? Or will be like, 'Oh okay.'? :/ Sigh. 


You'll never be mine, again. 

Broken.

Okay, back to blogging. So... School sucks. Like always. Life is kinda screwed. Everything is not in place. Relationships, people come and go, what for get so serious over it? Well, if everybody thinks this way, everybody will end up getting themselves hurt if they finally find one that they can really entrust themselves with. People don't just come and go. They leave scars and tracks in your heart. Remind you that you shouldn't repeat the same mistake. In a relationship, the most important thing is the Trust. If there's no trust, I don't see why people should continue. It will only make both parties miserable. Choices, many choices. Break ups are normal and everybody will be like, 'Yeah, I got over it and moving on.' That used to applies to me but... When you met someone that is so so so special to you, you just can't say that or even lie to yourself that you're okay. Yeah, I felt the pain. 17 years in my life. Finally I know what Love really felt like. The times we had spent together are still so vivid in my mind. One day, they might fade but its okay. In my heart, they never fade. They'll always be buried deep down my heart. Yeah, you made the right choice, just be happy. I can only watch you from afar. There's nothing I can do now. If you're sad, I can only see and get sad over it. If you're happy, I'll be happy for you too. If you're angry, I don't know how to calm you down. No matter what, I can only watch and keep everything to myself. Love is such a complicated thing. It is wonderful but it can be hurtful at the same time. It hurts more than million knifes stabbing you at the same spot continuously. Tears can no longer represent the pain I have to undergo. They might say I love the wrong person, they might say I'm dumb. Whatever. But as long as I know I didn't regret, it's worthwhile. I can't imagine you with other girls. It just kills me inside. I love you and all I can say is... I never thought of giving you up. You're all I ever wanted and forever will never have. I had you once. But.... Who loves to share... Nobody loves to share. I hate sharing things. Pin no hope. That's it. I shall write no more. Memories, will never die.

My world will always be black, white and grey...

I knew it.

Time flies. Its already end of June. Has been partialling like nobody's business since school starts. I feel bad about it and kinda worry that i won't be able to promote. Oh well. I shall update more often next time. Yeah man

好马不吃回头草.

Holiday sucks

FML

Okay, seriously, today is so not my day. In the morning when I woke up, had a terrible headache. When walking to the bus stop, the fucking weather turns bad and it started drizzling. When we reached the interchange, we fucking missed the bus. When I reached school, I can't manage to squeeze into the fucking lift. When I start lesson, I can't fucking concentrate cause I'm too fucking tired. When our team doing worksheet, I'm fucking lost. Although I manage to finish the worksheet, I still don't understand what am I suppose to do today. When doing ppt, I can't help it but got distracted easily. I swear that today is the worst day I had ever spent in that fucking school. This fucking module makes me go fucking mad and fucking stress. Okay, nvm. When we presenting, it become fucking cui. When going home, I walk to the bus stop at the opposite road with Qi Qi. Then, we wait for fucking 25 minutes. So we decided to walk further to another bus stop. We waited for fucking 10 minutes and fortunately, the bus came. But my friend fucking manage to squeeze into the fucking bus. Sua. Like that lah. So I wanted to walk to the another bus stop. THEN I FUCKING WALKED THE WRONG DIRECTION AND I FUCKING WALKED FROM WOODLANDS TO ADMIRALTY. MOTHER FUCKER. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I GOT SO SUAY AFTER SCHOOL. KNNBCCB. &@^#*&^@(*%$*. CAN'T STOP CURSING AND SWEARING. CCB. Okay, so I took the fucking escalator up to take the fucking MRT and I fucking missed the MRT. It left right at the moment I step onto the fucking platform. Nb. So when the next train come, I DIE also must get in. After the whole bus trip, I reached home at about 6.40. CCB! I LEFT MY CLASS AT 4.50 I REACHED HOME AT 6.40. NB! ALMOST 2 FUCKING HOURS TO GET HOME. WTF. AND SERIOUSLY, YOU FUCKING SPOIL MY DAY. PLEASE GO AND DIE, I DON'T WANNA SEE YOU! CAUSE YOU ARE MORE DUMB THAN THE BIRD IN MY FUCKING BRAIN YOU FUCKER. _l_

Fail.

HAPPY VESAK DAY!!!! :D

So ya, I thought I can actually update every single day but I always give excuses to myself saying that 'oh, yeah, had a long day. Tomorrow. Tomorrow.' Which is bullshit. LOL. Was not busy with my school work but busy going out with friends. Went lots of places. Hmmmmm.... Let me recall. Went out with Fazira, Dorene, Pearlina(only for a day. ._.) and Hubby. Yeah. I can't exactly remember where I went. :/

14 May 2011
Went to Indoor stadium and accompany Hubby. Dinner with family after that.

15 May 2011
Rot at home. -_-

16 May 2011
Went out with Fazira!!!!!! :D We went Town. Yay. And had Gong Cha. WOOHOO! :3

17 May 2011(Today)
Stayed overnight at Suxian's house yesterday night. Ate supper. Omg, which was soooooooo fattening. Rot there the whole day actually. Oh well. Yeah. Hope tomorrow will be a great day for me~

Happy advanced birthday hubby ♥

Basically, I enjoyed my day. (: Woke up at about 10 this morning. Went over to JP to buy the wrapping paper for his present. At first, I was damn lost cause I don't know where;s Popular. So I went to the top floor and slowly walked down. WA! TIRING SIA. SERIOUSLY. WTH! Okay, so after everything, took bus to his house. But before telling him to come down, I tried to wrap the present but the wind was too big. And there's no table at the void deck. I can only sit at the bench and wrap it. :( Which was damn damn damn fail. :/ In the end, I only tie one ribbon and that's it. HAHAHHAHAHHA! :x But the ribbon is nice lor! Called him down and fetch me. Helped his mom awhile and continue to watch tv after that. Ate steamboat at about 3 or 4. Continue to watch tv while he and his friends play taidi. I think. Wa! His aunt gave him the shirt I wanted to buy lor!!! BB SHIRT! T.T Nvm, I shall buy that someday. Herh. Well, all went into his room awhen his mom's friends came. He opened all his presents and I'm not very sure he like the present I bought for him. Cause his expression too confusing. LOL. Ate again after that. Watch tv again. Lucky there's coke. HEHHEHEHHE!!!! Coke rocks. LOL.Collect the cake at about 8.30pm. If I'm not wrong. The cake taste awesome! Ate agar agar. They played mahjong and his dad drive me home, he came along too. Aiyo, overall, I enjoy jiu dui liao. He's going to work tomorrow and monday... Sadded... :/ Goodnight.