My heart's a stereo.

I miss you so much................................. Baby... Where are you....

我的亲爱的你怎么不在我身边

If distance is the only barrier between us. It will be so wasted. Maybe I really should fucking move on. I will try to stop myself from loving you. I will try my best not to think of you, I will try my best not to remind myself that actually part of me will always love you. I will slowly forgot that I actually love you and I will forgot the memories we had together. I miss everything. If I can't forget, I will bury it deeply down my heart until someone that is special enough for me to give you up and really move on. If not I will always stuck at this state. I don't blame you for this but I blame myself for not choosing and making my choices correctly. But if I can use a time machine once, I will still return to that time when we were so sweet, before we even get together, before you give up on Pearlina. And I will certainly stop at that time when we're working at creative. :/

That sucks. -_-

Okay. So I'm suppose to meet Pearlina and she take forever. So I can't be bothered already. I'm just gonna stay at home. -.- I'm kinda pissed. Mother fu****. LOL. -.--------- Whatever fuck. Two papers down three more to go! Will be working tomorrow. Argh...

I need the courage to tell you everything...

Worked yesterday for the first time. Its tiring. Tsk. Oh well. This song is really meaningful. Sometimes, I don't even know what I'm waiting for. Its time for me to move on but I just can't let go yet....

Happy day, oh yes!

I'm so satisfied with the questions they gave for G101 today. HAHHAHAH But i don't think I can pss. I think I anyhow whack but oh well. Its over. One paper down and four to go. I will work hard okay mom and dad! AHAHHAHAH!!! Yes ah! Happygirl94. Lastly, SHE'S FUCKING HOT!

If you're reading, do pass with flying colours okay! Jiayou. ♥

Screwed...

Well.... I'm not suppose to expect anything from you. So stop pinning hopes on you and hope that something will happen. I don't know if I'm not good enough for you or its just you... Maybe someday, I may realise that 'Oh actually I don't have to miss you so much and you're just some fucking jerk.' But seriously, if that really happens, I hope that it happens now. Oh well. I'm still missing you, I'm still loving you. I lost my whole world and my whole world is you. If I know any ways to get back to how we used to, I will do anything just for that to happen... I guess its too late. Its a fact that you don't love me anymore.

I miss you so much, kill me please.

I feel so.... Useless. I think I'm weak and I don't know how to handle such problems. Should be.... I never met such problems before... Sigh.... Why ah why.... I will be there for you no matter what happens. I love you.

That's all I can say. I miss you.

When I got bored...

Went to Harbourfront Centre for interview with Caszella and there'll be a trial tomorrow morning at 11. So excited, can't wait to start work. Was quite a day today. I hope I can finish OB by today and sleep early. I wanna be energetic tomorrow! I must get employed! ARGH! JIA YOU! WOO! Going to study with GJ and his friends on sunday. That's kinda weird but oh well. Must study. HAHHAHAHA

Love your books.

Okay, so now is the study period and everybody is starting to study like mad dogs. I shall start studying too cause I know if I don't score well, I will be dead. I will have to retake the stupid modules and waste my time... Soooooooooooooooooooooo! I came out with a solution. WHICH IS TO LOVE THE THINGS I HAVE TO STUDY! Okay, I know its lame but ohwell, in order to know them well, you have to make friends with them. They look dead but just psyco yourself that 'oh actually they're fucking interesting and I think we should be great friends but once the UTs are over, I'm so gonna ignore you okay? DEAL!' LOL.

Enough of fun and should start mugging NOW. Yes, I'm awake. Shall work real hard next sem if I can promote or something. Please let me promote. ): I think I had given my parents enough disappointments... Sorry mom and dad. I love you both and I will work hard. Jia you! *HUGS*

When those memories are like tattoos...

Finally there's a study break. Shall really really really study for my exams. Its time I start to work hard for my UT3. I had been rotting since morning. Shit. -_- Well, I'm lazy. But whatever. Okay. So let's plan swee swee and do it! HEHHEHE!

Was kinda distracted... Maybe those memories are trying to tell me something but I just don't know which. Stay put or move on. Yeah, I lied. 'I moved on, what about him?' That's what I always say. But I don't mean it. I'm lying to myself. Lying to people around me. I hope he'll move on and... Ya. Just move on. Although I rather be suffering in a relationship, the other party won't think the same way. What's yours will always be yours, what's not yours will never be yours. Maybe he'll return, maybe he'll not. But I just want him to be happy.He seems happy, isn't it? Sometimes, I really hate him for giving me those sweet memories. However, this is the best prove for the love I gave him. Its all worthwhile and will always remain this way. I...... still love you.