Thursday, July 14, 2011

Broken.

Okay, back to blogging. So... School sucks. Like always. Life is kinda screwed. Everything is not in place. Relationships, people come and go, what for get so serious over it? Well, if everybody thinks this way, everybody will end up getting themselves hurt if they finally find one that they can really entrust themselves with. People don't just come and go. They leave scars and tracks in your heart. Remind you that you shouldn't repeat the same mistake. In a relationship, the most important thing is the Trust. If there's no trust, I don't see why people should continue. It will only make both parties miserable. Choices, many choices. Break ups are normal and everybody will be like, 'Yeah, I got over it and moving on.' That used to applies to me but... When you met someone that is so so so special to you, you just can't say that or even lie to yourself that you're okay. Yeah, I felt the pain. 17 years in my life. Finally I know what Love really felt like. The times we had spent together are still so vivid in my mind. One day, they might fade but its okay. In my heart, they never fade. They'll always be buried deep down my heart. Yeah, you made the right choice, just be happy. I can only watch you from afar. There's nothing I can do now. If you're sad, I can only see and get sad over it. If you're happy, I'll be happy for you too. If you're angry, I don't know how to calm you down. No matter what, I can only watch and keep everything to myself. Love is such a complicated thing. It is wonderful but it can be hurtful at the same time. It hurts more than million knifes stabbing you at the same spot continuously. Tears can no longer represent the pain I have to undergo. They might say I love the wrong person, they might say I'm dumb. Whatever. But as long as I know I didn't regret, it's worthwhile. I can't imagine you with other girls. It just kills me inside. I love you and all I can say is... I never thought of giving you up. You're all I ever wanted and forever will never have. I had you once. But.... Who loves to share... Nobody loves to share. I hate sharing things. Pin no hope. That's it. I shall write no more. Memories, will never die.

My world will always be black, white and grey...

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