That's all I can say. I miss you.

When I got bored...

Went to Harbourfront Centre for interview with Caszella and there'll be a trial tomorrow morning at 11. So excited, can't wait to start work. Was quite a day today. I hope I can finish OB by today and sleep early. I wanna be energetic tomorrow! I must get employed! ARGH! JIA YOU! WOO! Going to study with GJ and his friends on sunday. That's kinda weird but oh well. Must study. HAHHAHAHA

Love your books.

Okay, so now is the study period and everybody is starting to study like mad dogs. I shall start studying too cause I know if I don't score well, I will be dead. I will have to retake the stupid modules and waste my time... Soooooooooooooooooooooo! I came out with a solution. WHICH IS TO LOVE THE THINGS I HAVE TO STUDY! Okay, I know its lame but ohwell, in order to know them well, you have to make friends with them. They look dead but just psyco yourself that 'oh actually they're fucking interesting and I think we should be great friends but once the UTs are over, I'm so gonna ignore you okay? DEAL!' LOL.

Enough of fun and should start mugging NOW. Yes, I'm awake. Shall work real hard next sem if I can promote or something. Please let me promote. ): I think I had given my parents enough disappointments... Sorry mom and dad. I love you both and I will work hard. Jia you! *HUGS*

When those memories are like tattoos...

Finally there's a study break. Shall really really really study for my exams. Its time I start to work hard for my UT3. I had been rotting since morning. Shit. -_- Well, I'm lazy. But whatever. Okay. So let's plan swee swee and do it! HEHHEHE!

Was kinda distracted... Maybe those memories are trying to tell me something but I just don't know which. Stay put or move on. Yeah, I lied. 'I moved on, what about him?' That's what I always say. But I don't mean it. I'm lying to myself. Lying to people around me. I hope he'll move on and... Ya. Just move on. Although I rather be suffering in a relationship, the other party won't think the same way. What's yours will always be yours, what's not yours will never be yours. Maybe he'll return, maybe he'll not. But I just want him to be happy.He seems happy, isn't it? Sometimes, I really hate him for giving me those sweet memories. However, this is the best prove for the love I gave him. Its all worthwhile and will always remain this way. I...... still love you.

Having a hard time.......

I had a hard time forgetting you. I'm sorry. Went to SX's house and overnight there. Meet Pearlina and Glenson yesterday... Talked to Pearlina over it and she thinks its all not worth. Oh well. Emo songs over and over again. Went mac to have some fries and cough like nobody's business cause of the pepper iI added in the chilli. Jia li hai lah huh. Stupid. Argh, as I said. I'm not myself. Had been really really really quiet in class. Not myself at all. Sigh... Whatever. FML

Dear Della....

Today was a bad day. The faci is just simply too annoying. :( Whatever. She seems to always forget to take her medication on Fridays... Was very moody today. Sigh. When will I get back to my normal self? Never? Sigh. :( I miss you so much. But I won't tell you that cause.......... I know you make the right choice. As long as you're happy. Today, I realize... You don't have to do anything special to make me happy. As long as you're around, there's no reason why I shouldn't smile. That's love, Baby. Even though we're just friends now, that won't stop me from loving you. If one day I stop loving you, what will you do? :/ Ignore? Or will be like, 'Oh okay.'? :/ Sigh. 


You'll never be mine, again. 

Broken.

Okay, back to blogging. So... School sucks. Like always. Life is kinda screwed. Everything is not in place. Relationships, people come and go, what for get so serious over it? Well, if everybody thinks this way, everybody will end up getting themselves hurt if they finally find one that they can really entrust themselves with. People don't just come and go. They leave scars and tracks in your heart. Remind you that you shouldn't repeat the same mistake. In a relationship, the most important thing is the Trust. If there's no trust, I don't see why people should continue. It will only make both parties miserable. Choices, many choices. Break ups are normal and everybody will be like, 'Yeah, I got over it and moving on.' That used to applies to me but... When you met someone that is so so so special to you, you just can't say that or even lie to yourself that you're okay. Yeah, I felt the pain. 17 years in my life. Finally I know what Love really felt like. The times we had spent together are still so vivid in my mind. One day, they might fade but its okay. In my heart, they never fade. They'll always be buried deep down my heart. Yeah, you made the right choice, just be happy. I can only watch you from afar. There's nothing I can do now. If you're sad, I can only see and get sad over it. If you're happy, I'll be happy for you too. If you're angry, I don't know how to calm you down. No matter what, I can only watch and keep everything to myself. Love is such a complicated thing. It is wonderful but it can be hurtful at the same time. It hurts more than million knifes stabbing you at the same spot continuously. Tears can no longer represent the pain I have to undergo. They might say I love the wrong person, they might say I'm dumb. Whatever. But as long as I know I didn't regret, it's worthwhile. I can't imagine you with other girls. It just kills me inside. I love you and all I can say is... I never thought of giving you up. You're all I ever wanted and forever will never have. I had you once. But.... Who loves to share... Nobody loves to share. I hate sharing things. Pin no hope. That's it. I shall write no more. Memories, will never die.

My world will always be black, white and grey...