Having a hard time.......

I had a hard time forgetting you. I'm sorry. Went to SX's house and overnight there. Meet Pearlina and Glenson yesterday... Talked to Pearlina over it and she thinks its all not worth. Oh well. Emo songs over and over again. Went mac to have some fries and cough like nobody's business cause of the pepper iI added in the chilli. Jia li hai lah huh. Stupid. Argh, as I said. I'm not myself. Had been really really really quiet in class. Not myself at all. Sigh... Whatever. FML

Dear Della....

Today was a bad day. The faci is just simply too annoying. :( Whatever. She seems to always forget to take her medication on Fridays... Was very moody today. Sigh. When will I get back to my normal self? Never? Sigh. :( I miss you so much. But I won't tell you that cause.......... I know you make the right choice. As long as you're happy. Today, I realize... You don't have to do anything special to make me happy. As long as you're around, there's no reason why I shouldn't smile. That's love, Baby. Even though we're just friends now, that won't stop me from loving you. If one day I stop loving you, what will you do? :/ Ignore? Or will be like, 'Oh okay.'? :/ Sigh. 


You'll never be mine, again. 

Broken.

Okay, back to blogging. So... School sucks. Like always. Life is kinda screwed. Everything is not in place. Relationships, people come and go, what for get so serious over it? Well, if everybody thinks this way, everybody will end up getting themselves hurt if they finally find one that they can really entrust themselves with. People don't just come and go. They leave scars and tracks in your heart. Remind you that you shouldn't repeat the same mistake. In a relationship, the most important thing is the Trust. If there's no trust, I don't see why people should continue. It will only make both parties miserable. Choices, many choices. Break ups are normal and everybody will be like, 'Yeah, I got over it and moving on.' That used to applies to me but... When you met someone that is so so so special to you, you just can't say that or even lie to yourself that you're okay. Yeah, I felt the pain. 17 years in my life. Finally I know what Love really felt like. The times we had spent together are still so vivid in my mind. One day, they might fade but its okay. In my heart, they never fade. They'll always be buried deep down my heart. Yeah, you made the right choice, just be happy. I can only watch you from afar. There's nothing I can do now. If you're sad, I can only see and get sad over it. If you're happy, I'll be happy for you too. If you're angry, I don't know how to calm you down. No matter what, I can only watch and keep everything to myself. Love is such a complicated thing. It is wonderful but it can be hurtful at the same time. It hurts more than million knifes stabbing you at the same spot continuously. Tears can no longer represent the pain I have to undergo. They might say I love the wrong person, they might say I'm dumb. Whatever. But as long as I know I didn't regret, it's worthwhile. I can't imagine you with other girls. It just kills me inside. I love you and all I can say is... I never thought of giving you up. You're all I ever wanted and forever will never have. I had you once. But.... Who loves to share... Nobody loves to share. I hate sharing things. Pin no hope. That's it. I shall write no more. Memories, will never die.

My world will always be black, white and grey...